I SHOULD GIVE HER UP--SET HER FREE. 
The Russian army made me a killer, but the brotherhood made me what I am.
Ruthless. Deadly. Irredeemable.
Which is why Kayla should stay away.
The innocent young actress has a bright future ahead of her,
so long as someone doesn’t break her first.
Someone like me.
Every weekend, she gives herself to me fully.
Without question. Without hesitation.
She’s mine to command.
In return, I give her what she craves -- pain and pleasure.
But it’s a fantasy that can’t ever become reality.
We’re playing with fire,
but I can’t seem to let her go…